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Your smile, your horrible glasses, and your dark skin. Why did you come back? I thought your absence was colder, I thought hating you was easier. I’m falling for you again, you cause disturbance in my chaotic brain, and you ache my heart. Your perfume hasn’t changed, so how come you did? How come you love me again? Why are you warm now. Is it because you are sick? or did you finally feel that I’m worth it? I’m worth your attention? Go back; go back to where you came from, these walls have learned how to be alive with the coldness you left. Don’t warm them to leave them again, hating you is easier. I’ve learned to live without you, I’ve learned how to be alive without you, I’ve learned to be my own shoulder, I don’t need you. Don’t make me need you. Don’t teach me how to forgive; don’t teach me how to love again. I’ve burned your images out of my head, I’ve deleted your memories, I’ve learned to pretend you are dead. Why do you have to remind me of you? All these years without you, I needed you. I wanted you. I cried for you, I cried because of you. I’ve grown a thousand years with your absence, why would you come now, why would you tell me I’m your favorite? Why now? I’m tired. You make me tired. You consume me. I need to breathe again. I’m I ought to learn how to live with you now? Or are you going to leave me again? How am I suppose to trust you, I’m scared of enjoying this moment, I’m scared that I’ll get used to your presence to wake up one day without you around. Leave me alone, I don’t need you. I’m on my own. I’m a lone wolf.